chaffing at the bit, and other things

Hello All,
I was just thinking a little while ago, about a number of things. My hips hurt, and I know that when people cease to be physically active, they tend to lose the suppleness they once had. I've usually made sure that wherever I lived, I didn't have to depend on anyone for anything. I could go to the store, post office, library or wherever without asking anyone to take me. When I was in NH, I had this same damn problem. They live five miles from the nearest town. When I moved back to WV, that problem was taken care of.
Since I moved southwest, I've had the same damn problem. When I lived in Huntington I had that problem. In Charleston, I didn't even have a key to get back in, but then he's so much of an idiot he'd not have given me one anyway, besides which he's paranoid of everything.
Every time I live with someone else, I have this problem. I'm used to going somewhere when I'm ready to go. Just walk out the door and go. Even in NM, I had this problem.
I am used to being physically and mentally active. I'm used to reading, a lot! I'm used to calling the shots on when and where I go. Now, I live too far away from most places, and most of them I have absolutely idea where the hell they are anyway.
The less active I am, the more bored I get. It seems as if most of the people I know are either working, (which is good), watching TV or reading emails. Damn! Man, these people need to get a life. That's how it's been most of the time since I moved here to AZ. This is not my idea of living, it's no wonder I'm so freaking depressed so often, or so freaking bored out of my mind. This is not a good thing, because I make really stupid mistakes when it's like this. Being physically and mentally active keeps a person young, in mind, body and spirit.
You ever watch kids? They have an argument, then a few minutes later, they're playing again. Adults should be like that. I don't cut people out of my life just because they piss me off. So they shouldn't cut me out of their life just because I chose to say no to what they wanted me to do. I know what is in my best interest, and that just wasn't it.
I know this post will hurt some people's feelings, and it will piss others off, because they will take it as a personal front on them. It isn't meant that way. This is about me, how I feel and most importantly, why I feel that way. We're all adults here, people, so start acting like it. You need or want something done? Then do it. You want to do something? Then go do it. Stop letting things and people stand in your way. That's so adult. I started to say that's so childish, but kids don't let things stand in the way. So I need to go back to a few old habits of mine, such as if go around it, over it, under it, or thru it to get there. I haven't met a gate yet I couldn't get thru, or a wall I couldn't remove out of my way.
If none of you understand this, then you need to stop kidding yourself that you understand me, and start asking the right questions. I will answer, but only if you ask.
Peace,
ravnone1
P.S. I don't lead, nor do I follow. I make my own path. Always have, always will.

today's thoughts

Hi All,
It's good to be back. I stopped writing for awhile because of something something someone had said to me. This person, a few months ago, hinted that I wanted him to buy me a new pc. I'm kinda like the song, "Long Haired Country Boy", "...if I can't get it on my own." I'm not in the habit of asking friends to buy me things. I prefer to think of a way to get it on my own. This was back a few months ago when my pc went down for around two weeks.
It's simply mind over matter, if I don't mind it don't matter. I don't mind now, so it don't matter. Yeah, I realize these last few sentences were bad English, but so what? I don't care. I had a point to make. Furthermore, there are some people who have come into my life who called themselves friends, and were nothing even close to resembling a friend. If you don't know what a friend is, I'm sure not going to be the one to teach you.
I have one good friend here, and I have a bestest best friend. You know who you are. And I get email from a pretty good friend, and a phone call occasionally from another one. These four people do know about being a friend.
Damn, I sound as if I'm angry. I'm sorry, I'm not angry. Well I sorta am, because I've let one person keep me from doing something I enjoy. It's time to get back into the swing of things. I intend to start writing in this blog more often. I use this blog as a medium for coping with stress, anger, disappointment, happiness and whatever else is happening in my life.
This was of course my own fault, I didn't have to let someone deprive me of this happiness. It was my choice. But I'm back now.
Peace,
ravnone1

ever wonder about things?

Hey All,
It's been awhile since I posted anything. I mentioned to a friend yesterday that I used to post about almost everything, and now I post about very little. So, most likely either you've forgotten me, or think I've gone off somewhere. I've just not had anything to say. At least nothing I wanted to post on the web.
I think that will change now. I started out using this as a journal, and so I'm going back to using it that way. Only now I find myself at a loss for words. Not much of a journal is it? I Oh well,
until next time...
peace,
ravnone1

worry, forgiveness, openSUSE, and other things

Hi All,
I was laying in bed last night and felt as if I were worried about something. Then I had an "ah ha" moment. Worry is when you think constantly on something that may never happen, but if you constantly think about it, you'll draw it to you. So why worry about something that may never happen?
Forgiveness is for us, not necessarily for the other person. It sure makes one feel better. It takes a lot off your mind. Even those who like to hold grudges for a long time. You are hurting yourself more than the other person. All that poison is in your system, screwing up things for you. And if we hold grudges, rather than forgive people who do us wrong, it is poison in our system.
I am using openSUSE, from Novell and wow is what I have to say. This is one system I really like. Hey, it's free, and it's the best flavor of Linux I've ever used as of this date.
Peace,
ravnone1