Yeah, I decided to do a little drawl there. I talk in a somewhat southern accent, so I guess it doesn't hurt to write like it just a little. So why did I decide to stay here in Phoenix? Instead of running away? Isn't that what it would've amounted to? I don't run away from anything. Period. I have better things to do, and better ways of handling it than that. Besides is that not what I was bitching about my daughters for doing? They didn't want to practice magick anymore, because things are bad for them. To me, that is the time to dig in, hunker down, and let the games begin. In other words, take action. If I left, I'd be doing the same thing. I decided to do things my way.
I'm glad I decided to stay, so here I am. I think magick can be used to correct our mistakes. I use it to make my life better. And while it is manipulative, so is anything else for that matter, it isn't used to hurt anyone. It is termed manipulative because it manipulates something. In this case, to bring change into my surroundings, to help me to be a better person. The following quote is from today's horoscope at http://www.tarot.com/ :
"Your thoughts can have a powerful impact on others now and you are willing to do battle to defend your beliefs. You can be quite convincing, but someone may feel as if you are beating him or her down with your persistence, rather than relying on the substance of your ideas. Go ahead and put them out there knowing the best ones will be embraced eventually. "
I don't care if anyone believes as I do or not, it's a personal thing, how you believe. If I insisted that all believe as me, it would be really boring...not to mention not being right. Belief is a personal thing, a person must find and follow their own path. Regardless of whether anyone else believes that way or not. It doesn't matter if anyone else believes, it's important that you find your own way, and find peace, the peace that surpasseth understanding. Even in the midst of turmoil, regardless of how I'm acting, or what's going on, I feel peaceful most of the time. Which just means that at that particular time, I'm not in total alignment with the Divine Will.
I do try to maintain alignment with the Divine Will, it just makes things so much easier for me. I try not to ask for things that I don't really want. But I do make requests for things I want or need, which is often synonymous. I believe that what I need or want will come to me, when I need it. Just as I believe that I have all the right answers to all the right questions, I know what I need to know when I need to know it. That isn't saying that I know everything, because I don't. I just know what works for me. It might not work the same way for others.
I think we all need to be in harmony with nature. With our surroundings. It's particularly hard when there's a lot of yelling and fighting...been there done that. Ain't gonna happen again. There's been enough drama in my life. Hell if I want drama, I'll be the one to create it. I sure as hell don't need any help on that score. Been there done that as well.
Peace to all of you,